Wednesday, October 29, 2008
friendship, is it real?
hi, mat ! i wanna share you something complicated in my life.
better you read it till end [thx]
I have lots experience bout friendship with mine. But, not at oll were happines. even, dat's one which is really made me hurt. i've friends, almost says.. we did something togetha, play, spent our leisure time, gossip, eat, daydreamin'. etc. But, so far, our relations is lil bit broken. i dunno why, is it just my mind or reality. I tried to enjoyed it. But, actually, i couldn't. hfuht. :(
For the first, i thought dat i wasn't considered by them, for ex., everything dat they did, yeah, like hang out, play, or etc, just did it without me.
i tried to thought dat..probably,,they forgot to asked me.
it's ok. no matter.
For the second, those'r some secrets between us. Oh My Gosh ! it was so bored !
Not wanna know deeply bout themselves, but, c'mon, try to share it, did u think that i am ur friend, huh? i didn't like dat atmosphere.
I tried to be positive thinkin'.
nd, the main one. they did "it" --i can't tell clearly-- without me! ohh.. it was so hurted me !
not wanna always join in everythings. but, try to respect me. i just need it. yeah, RESPECT each other.
imagine, if you were me, wat will u do?
after dat, ai felt fell down from the high high high tower.
ai was really hopeless.
in dat time, i though dat FRIENDSHIP is BULLSHIT !
f*** ! !
ai trust no more with friendship.
friendship likes a DISGUSTING thing.
friendship lots of LIER.
friendship lots of enemies.
friendship is so s**k !
friendship likes a HELL !
I TRUST NO MORE BOUT FRIENDSHIP
after i got out my mad, i tried tried again to be positive thinkin.
i wanna b childish no more, dat solve every problem with lots tears nd anger.
now, i'm 17 years old. In dat years, lots people say some body will be maturer.
so, i though, is dat usefull if i fell down continually?
i tried to find out some articles bout friendship in internet to joked me..
well,, in my opinion:
"FRIENDSHIP IS NOT ALWAYS TO BE OWN EACH OTHER, BUT, FRIENDSHIP IS HOW BOUT LEARN THEM, HOW BOUT CARE THEM, ND HOW TO ACCEPT MY CONDITION IN THEIR LIVES"
well, now, i'm maturer than before. i try to accept my condition, try to joinin with them again.
i always love them, even they don't.
i try to care them, even they don't.
i try to belongin' them even they feel no.
i try my best to love them :)
with oll happiness dat i've got,,
niia
"aku ingin menjadi seorang PANGLIMA yang
tak pernah berpikir untuk kalah dalam perangnya"
